I'm Sorry
I stumble forward
Feet dragging through so much detritus
Aimless
Lost
I can feel myself choking
And I look around for anyone
But the horizon is flat and empty
I try to step out of my path
Out of the debris stabbing and cutting my feet
But sink into the ground as soon as I do
There is only one way forward
I fall to my knees
Tired and weak
Hands clutching at my throat
Grasping
Scratching
Begging for air
Black ichor pours forth from my mouth as I choke
Spraying everywhere when I cough
Seeping down my chin
My throat
My hands
It clings and stains and consumes
Pooling around me
I cough again
Spewing forth more ichor
But I can breathe now
My eyes water with the effort
And through the tears
I can now see more clearly than ever
That which is at my feet
It wasn't trash
But memories now stained by the poison inside of me
Forever tarnished
When I all wanted was to breathe
I look around again
The horizon is not so flat after all
Broken by the silhouettes of people
I have far to travel